Well there you have it. I just got back on medication after not being on it for a couple of years. In my case I went off it because I was trying to erase my psychiatric records in pursuit of a career. Well if I reapply for that job and get to the psych evaluation, I deal with it then, being off my medication caused me to relapse with marijuana which really messed me up. I think you would feel better about yourself if you went back on your medication. Maybe try a different one. I’m on Wellbutrin for the first time and it seems to be helping .