Honestly, most of the things that you are saying are lies that you keep telling yourself. Of course, there is a real thing called a "self fulfilling prophecy" where you can make the lie come true by always speaking in a negative and depressing way. We meet all kinds of people in life where the problem is with them not us, as they are filled with negativity, anger, their own life troubles, etc.
Autistics like to spend most of their time alone. You should embrace and celebrate this. Instead of thinking about all of the "great" things that your mind perceives you are missing, maybe thing about all of the "horrible" trouble you are being spared by not being involved with all of these impossible and difficult selfish humans.