I’m trying really hard to make progress and desensitize myself to that GM being nicer and kinder to everyone else. I asked M to show me the messages between himself and the GM. I saw so many low carb recipes and what they each ate each night and a bit of small talk here and there.

I made Herculean effort to hold it together and I did! Even though intense sadness and jealousy overcame me. I told M that I didn’t cry and held it together.

He said he didn’t expect me to fall apart in the first place and that’s normal. It only got me a little dejected but in the end, I made progress