I can’t help but just feel ashamed and embarrassed. I’m not sure what changed. One day I was proud, the next I’m hating myself.
I don’t take pride in my past struggles anymore. I’m not proud to be resilient. To survive trauma.
All I can think about is “wow you made some pretty bad choices. Choices that have put me where I am today” “no wonder your life is crap”

Like at what point do you take responsibility for your past actions and admit that those choices and actions lead to my life right now. When I think now if sharing my last struggles with others I feel super embarrassed. People will judge me in a negative way instead of thinking I’m strong. Because I’m older now and I can’t use my last as an excuse for my present life.

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