Thank you for the responses both Open Eyes and mssweatypalms. mssweatyplams, thank you for the hugs.


I don't have it in me to write much about this right now, but I will try to write more about it at a later time. I know that he is unhappy. And I know that I have hurt his feelings. And, I think he has some mental health issues of his own that he may not be getting help with.


I have thought about contacting him to see if we can reconcile in any way. Or maybe writing him a letter. But I want to make sure I'm not making things worse for either of us. And I'm not ready, I guess. I need to be ready and I need to want to write it. I am feeling more angry with him over this lately, because it really, I mean, it's controlling and it seems, to me, like punishing behavior.


I did write here, at one time, the whole thing that happened between us. I took it down because I am kind of sensitive about it, I mean, I certainly made mistakes. I'd also felt better after I'd written it all out. I could put it back up at some point maybe. For context.


Oh and just one more thing, yes, I think he does not know how to talk conflict out. He kind of blames everyone else for his misfortune and upset. He may have a tendency to ruminate, like I do. I'm not sure.