I’m kind of down right now. I’m using a heating pad on my stomach to see if that helps. I have no idea If heat is actually proven to help with anxiety, but if it works it works. I did take my meds and an extra Valium. None of which are making a difference. Maybe I’m just expecting too much of the Valium. It says it’s quick working but maybe it does take longer then 10 minutes to work.

I was thinking of getting chili’s or pizza for dinner but since I don’t use food to cope with my emotions I don’t think it will make a difference in how I feel. Plus I’m not too hungry anyways.

I’m hoping to get some major relief and some good news tomorrow. When I “get”my “period” and can call around for therapists.