The only accommodation I really required is to not ever be put on back drive. Cuz there’s nothing to distract me from intrusive thoughts about the GM. Then I have panic attacks and either make mistakes or simply couldn’t muster the energy to do more than the bare minimum. I tried to tell them all that but when Trent (not his real name) isn’t here, I get put on back drive.

Today is no different. No one texted me ahead of time to tell me Trent called in, so I went straight to back drive. Sure enough, during my 8 hours there, 4 of those hours were panic attack and mental breakdown.

At 1:55 pm, a coworker brought sauce containers for me to fill. I said over the headset that I won’t have time cuz I leave at 2. A manager replied my replacement isn’t here yet and I need to wait til my drawer gets changed anyway.

Finally at 2 pm:

Manager trainee: (my name), the sauces will be done before you leave.
Me: ok don’t forget to do them then.

A minute later:
Me: (trainee’s name), I can’t do sauces because (GM) is putting me through hell.
Her: fill the sauces or I’m writing you up
A real manager: (to me) don’t even talk about (GM). He isn’t here anymore
Me: (GM) put me through hell. Have you no sympathy?! Actually don’t answer. MF.

A minute later: (to trainee) I really can’t do sauces bc GM putting me thru hell.
Her: fill the sauces and then you can go home.

I proceeded to loudly complain to M (same MF who messaged about blood sugar with the said GM) that the trainee isn’t accommodating me. M called us both to the office. I thought he would chastise her. Nope, it’s me he chastised while trainee watches.

I explained that GM don’t want to talk to me every time he’s here and that precludes me from doing more than the bare minimum. I expressed my jealousy of my coworkers who he’s much nicer to.

M explained I’m here to work and nothing a manager asks me to do is “extra.” The fact that GM don’t talk to me is not an excuse to not work. And that not everyone at work will be sympathetic. I said ok I’ll do sauces but I can’t come in on my next shift.

He said expect a write up for attendance.

They refused to give me the accommodation I need (not to do back drive) even after I gave them legitimate reasons that I need the accommodation. So I reached breaking point. So why should I be expected to do anything extra? I tried so hard to keep it together