Ruby it sounds like you are actually trying to get fired. You sound out of control. I wonder if you could take few days off and get yourself in order. It sounds like situation in Sams. All went well until you started acting completely out of control, we all begged you to stop. You didn’t. You lost that job. You’ll lose this one. Just stop now, take few days off, try to calm down. If you don’t think you can, you might need to leave this job on your own because you’ll be fired if you don’t stop.