I had a hard time falling asleep last night. My guilt, shame, and regret torture me night and day. During the day, I shut down my brain by binge watching Netflix and reading, but at night, I can’t hide from the past. I woke up anxious this morning. I wish I had been the mother my children needed. In recent months, I’ve come to realize I’m a selfish, self-absorbed person. I know now that I’ve always been this way. I’m trying to change. I pray to God to help me consider how my words and actions affect others. I want to be a good person.