I want to learn human behavior. I also want to feel like everything is fair. As in, is it fair that 2 people started to look down on me the SAME day the GM first hurt my feelings, even though at that point, I wasn’t yet rude to anyone? That was 6 weeks ago. Remember I can’t understand concept beyond nice and rude. So anytime people stopped accepting me even though I hadn’t been rude causes me confusion.

Even though only these 2 people look down on me, I kinda feel like most people at work stopped accepting me.

Chain of events:
1. GM started being cold and rejecting. It causes
2. Two coworkers look down on me. Also, mild mental breakdowns cuz GM won’t talk to me. These in turn causes
3. Worse mental breakdown and my rudeness started to emerge. THAT causes
4. More people don’t accept me

I wish I coulda prevented the chain reaction at its source: GM being rejecting towards me. I coulda prevented that by not obsessing over him.. had I understood the concept of boundaries and appropriate distance