How to jump back in?

So disclaimer – I’m not great at being open and have a lot of apprehension to posting. I’ve had pretty awful experiences forum wise in the past so I just ask you bear with me. I figured I’d start with that so if you find my message too vague, you can perhaps understand a little bit where I’m coming from.

I’m in a position now where I’ve not been in therapy for a while. It helped me more or less for a time when it was something I could afford, but it wasn’t in a traditional setting. My circumstances now allow me to not worry about the monetary aspect of therapy, but I would be confined to a traditional type therapy session and/or telehealth. Long story short – I’m trying to reconcile with myself is going into therapy really worth the effort?

I know it’s mainly questions I have to answer for myself, but I struggle between – “I don’t know what I need to get better, and I’m not sure I want to start all over with someone new” to “You clearly aren’t getting along without intervention. It’s been quite a few years with no progress.”. I feel ashamed of where my life is, and my inability to move forward on my own – not to mention I’m not even insightful enough to know how. I just see a million reasons and turn offs that could happen and it’s really making this a difficult experience for me.

For those of you in therapy, what helped you seek help and maintain your therapist? I guess without a clear indication of what is wrong, just symptoms to my problem present – I feel like I’m not going to get anywhere with it. Again, I don’t want to start all over and there is too much the compacts, compiles and collapses on itself to not integrate every aspect of my life. I mean, everyone knows no one sole thing created your situation… anyway, it’s just more than I really feel like is worth dealing with at times – but I’m not making any progress unless I do.

Any suggestions on how to approach perhaps going back to therapy? Thanks in advance for your responses and please keep them civil. I am fully aware I am the only person who can make the decision to go back, I’m just curious if anyone else has struggled to. I’m looking to relate and be understood, not be judged and told it’s my problem – I already know.