I'm falling asleep. I try to fight it, but it always wins. I'm fighting it now. I've come real close to dreamland SEVERAL times already. All day, every day! This is so freaking annoying and frustrating!!! Why can't I wake up?! I know its physical reasons, but still. I'm tired of it. Literally! Just as much as I am tired of having all this extra water in me. I poke the skin in my legs with a pin, and I "bleed" water. Somebody didn't believe me once so I proved it. Think I'm losing actual body weight--not that anyone could probably tell if I got on a scale. My stomach just has that flatter feel to it like when I don't eat. As much as part of me would still like to be underweight again, I believe its costing me my muscles. Its like my body is eating its own muscles for energy. But I do eat. My crazy body just doesn't realize that. Pain every day. My leg is starting to almost give out once in a while now. I am so tired of everything! I need a nap.