I haven’t heard back from my insurance company. So I guess I’ll just start with this new therapist and pay $100 a session. I guess If I put $50 on my debit and $50 on my credit card it won’t be too bad in the long run. I wanted to work with her anyways. Today I feel a noticeable difference in how I feel today vs how I felt these last 10 days. So yeah it was most likely PMDD. I woke up and I didn’t immediately go for a valium. I didn’t take one until right before we left the house to go out. I went to the pet store and got a good brand of cat food for my cats. They had been eating meow mix but I am switching them to Royal Canin. There fur is getting greasy and I just want them to eat better overall. Then when I was passing a garden center I was thinking that maybe I need a new hobby. I’ve always wanted a Venus flytrap. I went to a couple garden centers before I found one. I’m naming it Audrey after the plant from Little Shop Of Horrors. Then I decided to get sea monkeys since I’ve wanted those too for awhile. Those took a bit of difficulty finding but I finally found them at Hobby Lobby. I got a glass vase for them too. I only spent about $20 total for the plant, and the seas monkeys and vase. I’m hoping my cats leave both the plant and the sea monkeys alone.

But overall today I’ve noticed a difference in my anxiety and my Valium seems to be working. My moods are well controlled too and since I actually felt comfortable leaving my house to do legit things, not just grocery shopping, I feel like I may be over my PMDD. At least for the next 2 weeks.

Last night I took a muscle relaxer, an extra Geodon, and 20 milligrams of melatonin. I wasn’t really depressed. More like I was frustrated and in pain and just wanted to fall asleep fast. My mom has my meds but she only hides them at night when she goes to bed. During the day she leaves them on the counter and I just take whatever I need. I didn’t tell her about last night though.