Hugs, as well as other forms of physical contact, used to be important to me. But, over the years, I've become increasingly distant to the point where I don't feel comfortable being touched by anyone. I do harbor a secret yearning for hugs & to be held. But whenever I actually get it (which is rare) it feels very uncomfortable and I feel the need to break away as quickly as possible. Actually, in that sense, the pandemic has been helpful for me because it discourages people from getting close enough to touch.