I've been struggling today, but the good news is things aren't as dark as they have been. I think my Cymbalta is helping there. I'll have a bad thought but it doesn't really spiral out of control like it has in the past. I have a more positive feeling holding me up even though I do feel pretty bad. Today I am angry that some people in my life have ignored me. My brother is in town visiting, and I haven't heard from him. And for 2 days, a close friend ignored me like usual. They told me they were off work, so it didn't make sense that they couldn't find time for me. Especially if we're supposed to be working on a relationship. I ghosted the boyfriend and my brother's number still remains deleted from my phone. I will never speak to him again no matter what. These hurts can't be undone.