So Sorry for what you're going through! Please do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about finding some methods to relieve your stress if you aren't trying that already. It does seem like your boyfriend isn't being really supportive. i feel like this may need some discussion with him although i think i understand if you don't feel like it. Are you currently seeing a therapist? Perhaps that may Help a bit as well. So Sorry if this post isn't really helpful. i Hope things will Improve soon for everyone. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @DoroMona, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!