I’ve been up since 2:30 I think. I skipped the melatonin last night and I fell asleep fast because of an extra 20 Geodon, a zofran, and a muscle relaxer. I fell asleep with my headphones on and the pop rock indie type music I like. I woke up because the theme song from the movie Matilda was playing. I think the song is called On My Way, or something. I really like that movie so that’s why the song woke me up. Then I took a melatonin at 3 but it didn’t do anything. I put my music back on and I stayed in bed until 6:30 and then I took a shower and watched the news. I took a Valium and I tried going without any Geodon but I ended up taking a 20. Both meds did nothing to help my anxiety. I woke up with this meningitis Covid type muscle ache in my neck that I assumed was just from sleeping so long with my headphones on. I took Tylenol which also isn’t helping. I mean I can understand my mental help meds stopping working but I don’t get how 2 extra strength Tylenol can’t help with a simple muscle ache.

I got to the grocery store ok this morning. I just got frozen fruits and vegetables since all my other stuff I needed is too expensive. So I’ll get to Walmart later.

My moods are in check today. But my anxiety really sucks again. I can manage it but it’s been tough. It’s been never ending since my surgery. Today I’m not dwelling on anything in particular. I’m not freaking about therapy or my insurance and I’m not having bad memories of last Christmas. I’m just kind of anxious for no reason today.

My temp is 96.9 I thought I read or heard from someone that low body temps are not good either. But it’s probably just my health anxiety. I am very cold and I’m probably just not feeling good from lack of sleep.