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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
I’m curious for how long has this been a pattern for you, Ruby.
Did you ‘look up to’ teachers or other adults growing up? Did they distance from you once you became overly needy?
You have mentioned a few of these incidents happening with the managers at this and past jobs.
I’m curious where this pattern started. It might help you to write out (you don’t have to do it here) the order of these fixations turned to meltdown triggers. Have there been many? How have you moved forward from them? Was it to find a new target of obsession?
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Fourth grade. My teacher was 25. I loved her. She didn’t really like my attention all that much but I didn’t get a restraining order or anything. Hell, she very rarely even sent me to principals office.
I stopped this behavior throughout middle school in order to fit in my ever changing group of friends. I’m in popular group one day, average ones next. Back to popular group.
By junior year of high school, middle school type drama eventually died down completely. I needed guidance to move on to adulthood, so I had favorite teachers just like Kaitlyn from Arby’s did in HER high school years. Those teachers didn’t like my attention at all (unlike kaitlyn’s teacher). But I put my hurt feelings aside to hang out with my friends and they were EVERYWHERE.
But work? Being an adult? Forming caring adult relationships? I mean everyone seems to do that successfully but me.
I know it’s hard for you guys to directly answer what YOU think my chance of being fired is based on my 3 recent outbursts. So I took to Reddit. EVERYONE who gave a direct answer said they have a HIGH chance of firing me. High chance means it’s better to quit, right? Even my mom said I have around 20% chance of KEEPING my job.
I’m not ******* up on purpose. The slightest stress literally makes me explode in split second. For the past few weeks. My fuse is that short bc I spent my energy constantly processing my grief. Literally tried my very best