You really need a professional evaluation. Your meds aren't working for you.

Second, ask for help. Who can help with the summer theater? Can you move it to a church? Let the community help you. Talk to local pastors. See if they can enlist some help for you.

Don't try to go it alone. If you can't talk on the phone, write letters. Ask your husband for help. Post an ad in the local newspaper. Chances people in your community love the theater as much as you do. Let them help you. Maybe you'll be able to be in the background, directing things and others will get a blessing out of helping.

My very best wishes to you. I know how overwhelming this can be.