Ruby, there are connections here. Example, I am sure you were already told to stop going around the profanity filter, because mods came in and edited it, and you keep doing it. You know what the rules are at work, and you break them anyway. You blame it on saying your emotions make you out of control. If that is really the case then you should quit your job until you have therapy and can learn to control your behaviors. If you are not in control of your behaviors then you don't need to be living independently, shouldn't be making decisions, and should certainly not be working with heavy supervision.