I hope we can meet tomorrow, but I’ll be ok with the outcome either way. What I’d like to do isn’t necessarily the right thing to do, and I’d prefer to do the thing I’ll regret least. I know these are ‘exceptional’ circumstances but I’m still grateful you said it would be ok to cancel at short notice if I had to, because I honestly hate doing things like that.
Mum mentioned something about possibly seeing a grief counsellor when I got home, which I think would be really good for her, even if they didn’t go into depth about the other stuff (though for me, it seems kind of an inevitability). I have mixed feelings, nothing strong but I’m not quite as ‘ok’ as I thought I might be. It does help knowing I’ll see you soon either way. The stuff I want to say can’t be said to family, not that I want to, but I need to say it to someone.