thats exactly what we did....make a list but I couldnt prioritize worth a
sh*&....

she's trying so hard to help, but my 25 years of being depressed and not communicative is hard to overcome....I think thats why shes
pushing me to get more exercise.....

I'm stuck between trying to figure out if life is worth living and if it is what can I do to make it more enjoyable

burn down my business ...go back to school....head for the mountains and disappear...try my luck at professional poker

then my wife and her illness and not being able to be a nurse
still keeps me down...our relationship isnt what it could be.......

i just remember what Dori said in Finding Nemo:

"just keep swimming...just keep swimming!"