Thank you for the kindness. It's hard but gets a little easier every day. I did Lamictal for years without issue in my thirties, but this time, yeeeeah. Not so great. At 50 mg, I had five days where I could only sleep for about four hours, anxiety went full-on supercharge, and I was massively paranoid about random things for about a week. Apparently a rare side effect. So you just never know the way something is going to effect you. Hopefully you get it figured out soon!