Yes @AzulOscuro it would be expensive. Plus it's difficult and very expensive to book any holiday accommodation now, because people are staying in UK in greater numbers the demand is very high.

This is within myself - I need to accept this situation. It isn't changing, no holiday this year. I am processing my disappointment, and my feelings of envy and unfairness. No it's not fair but life generally isn't and it isn't helping me to dwell on it.

I'm pleased for my family and friends who have travelled and had a nice time.

I need to dig deep within myself. What can I do to meet my needs. What makes me feel better. I need to focus on my wellbeing and manage my anxieties.