I can feel my mind unraveling. I know I am unwell and unstable. I am having intense SI and feel like I’m going crazy. I don’t want to miss my daughter’s visit and I loathe inpatient but that’s where I may be headed. I’m not capable of doing anything but staring at the wall so it’s every man and woman for his and her self right now in this household. I’ll contact my sister this morning to step in. I just keep thinking if I try hard enough or think hard enough, I’ll pull out of it.

In any event, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend including a good 4th.