I took my morning Geodon at 7PM. I had taken my 100 mil around 4:30. I wanted to sleep longer and not be hungry for today. It kind of worked. I woke up to eat pizza Goldfish at 1 and I had some ramen for breakfast. I’ve already taken 2 of my 3 Valium and they aren’t doing much probably from lack of Geodon. Overall my moods are controlled. I’m drinking caffeine free diet Mountain Dew instead of zero sugar Dr. Pepper and Pepsi today. I feel like I can’t really handle the caffeine. I did get a $1 Diet Coke from sonic and I had a glass of iced coffee that came from a carton. I’ve pretty much cut out Starbucks and Dunkin’ Donuts after switching to cartons of iced coffee and drinking that instead. I’m trying to cut out fast food and I’ve been doing a pretty good job overall. I used to get stuff sometimes twice a day. Now I just eat frozen vegetables and pantry food. Sometimes I’ll get an ice cream cone. I haven’t gone out to eat since June 3rd. I don’t know if my behaviors including “med manipulation” as my therapist called it are becoming an issue or not. My 7 year old nephew commented on my weight loss yesterday. A lot of it though is just fat turning into muscle and my weight shifting like it’s supposed to on my shots.

Edit: I’m gonna take a 20 mil Geodon cause this anxiety sucks.

Second edit: I took the 20 mil Geodon and I ate some grilled zucchini and I feel less anxious.