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Old Jul 02, 2021, 01:38 PM
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Originally Posted by ruby2011 View Post
I just don’t want him to feel too terribly bad that’s all. Things happen and only hindsight is 20/20. I want him to know it’s nothing to do with him and to not be burdened with bad feelings. I want him to know it’s ok.

I made things toxic for myself. I wish I hadn’t yelled at people or talked incessantly every day about the GM. I went in today ready to turn things around only to be SURROUNDED by coworkers who HATE me. Cuz hate more closely describe their attitude towards me than simply dislike.

I couldn’t BEAR being hated. So I snapped when someone got snotty with me.

It’s too late for me here
You went in ready to have a positive attitude, but YOU have to repair the relationships with your coworkers before they'll act positively towards you. They are not just going to turn on a dime and like you again because you decided to come in with a good attitude. And you reinforced their dislike by behaving the way you did, making that awful remark.

If others don't like you, you either ignore them, or, if at work, behave politely and professionally and move on. Instead you are creating a toxic workplace and making everyone dislike you by behaving this way.

It doesn't matter now. You're certainly about to be fired.

And how do you have the audacity to turn this into caring what the old GM thinks about you? Ruby, he does not think about you at all, do you not get that? He doesn't care about you, never did. You were just an employee that he supervised. Period. You have to stop creating relationships in your head. You are not connecting with reality. Even with your co-workers, I'm betting that this perceived cold shoulder is in your head.
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