To anyone who is reading:
I wanted to give you a quick update on the scenario for anyone interested. It’s gotten a bit complicated and I’m at a loss of words really, but It is what it is. So, I did call today to see about getting an appointment for therapy. The last therapist I saw, who I am not sure is a great fit, is booked up until the 20th. I really would like to see someone before then. I’m not in a “crisis” but I’m suffering a lot these days and would just like something as soon as possible. I asked about seeing someone else. I was told I would have to terminate my current therapist and never see her again if I did that. I’m not sure that’s the best option, again, I don’t want to start all over. I asked about perhaps getting my medical records and trying somewhere else. Again, I would have to pick them up in person or find a place and give authorization to give my forms to them. The problem with both options is that the location of these services is almost 2 hours away. I live in a small town and there’s no way I’m going to find something here, especially considering how quickly I would like to start. Also, if I used another service, they would stop seeing me. It is a pretty standard thing and makes sense – rapport has to be developed and if I’m seeing another therapist, it doesn’t make much sense…

I know I’m not in a crisis, but the suffering is awful. I just don’t want to suffer through this alone, and I don’t have social support or even a therapist. I’m asking too much of everyone around me to accommodate for my issues. It’s not my therapists fault she’s booked up, if I saw her consistently, I wouldn’t have this problem. I know this is all my own doing so I’ll just suffer with it I suppose. I told the receptionist I’ll call back later and let her know what I will do.

I’m leaning to just accepting the appoint on the 20th and struggle till then. At least it’s a concrete timeframe. I will just make due with what I have.

Thanks for reading. Also don’t feel compelled to reply, I’m not trying to keep this topic towards the top or keeping it alive. Those who have contributed have been appreciated and very much valued from my end. Thank you for that. This is about the end of the story so to speak, so I won’t add anything else.



Thanks again for reading.