Hi, I'm so sorry to hear this. Rejection and criticism are brutal to people with this disorder (I was dxd with it..) I think I have got to the point now though where I analyse the rejectors and judgers and imagine putting a big smile on my face and.... well I am a bear. Maybe feel sorry for people who are so ''insecure'' that they have to be mean to others? It doesn't work too well for me though. When professionals are cruel it hurts even more

Please hang in there. There are some lovely people on these forums who want to listen and who care. I try to be one of those people. Feel free to PM me any time I certainly do not hate you and I'm sure that nobody here does (or ever would)