What might be numbing me is that my stress hormones might be that high, every morning is a feat, so that very well could be it. But at about 12pm I always level out.

Something big occurred recently, for 5 years I've had to supplment protein shakes to fight my anxiety every day or every other day, and I noticed I don't need them anymore. Before when Id skip two days, Id feel overcome by anxiety, it was almost like akathasia where I'd tap my feet for 5 hours in excruciating anxiety or internal restlessness. I don't know how to tell them apart exactly. So maybe my stress level is slowly getting better, a few years ago I had to take a mood stabilizer to control my anxiety, but I dont need one of those anymore but to sleep.

My pdoc really did a number on me. 9 years and I'm still trying to recover from all the drugs he pushed on me. I pray to god I get my emotions back... = (