I guess I will be moving out this July, With God`s help.

It was my roommate`s request but then she got frustrated at me for refusing.

Today I thought to myself that it can be great just to have an apartment FOR ME on my own no need for roommates.

They place I love the most, whoch is really near me in EXPENSIVE and right now i don`t have the money for such...like 1000$ etc...

But today i thought of itfor 2 reasons:

1) I feel fine when I am alone but when my roommate makes meals with our classmates and never invites me to join them and even when i join them and talk wiht them etc, In the end when i want to help wiht the dishes i am rejected....I feel relatively lonely and it is sad and it hurts and i would better be alone copletely - without feeling lonely

2) I always wanted adn dreamed about such a place JUST FOR ME to be there for a while. I always know thre will be such a period in my life, I have nothing agains a family. But i am not rushing it. I don`t even have a boyfriend

3) I thought today about having to clean because i it`s not fair that she is always cleaning because she is crazy about it. Each one of us cleans once in 2 weeks so that`s every week we have a clean apartment. this week she wasn`t naggy about the cleaning like she usually does....so i want to clean and do WHATEVER I want without having to try to do anything and have to do with anybody...

I just wondering....won`t I be scared?
I rememeber there were people who got into the building knocking on doors and beating you up if you open. It`s a quite dangerous place...

I could live with roomates in the place i dream about if there was any...but i am not sure that there is. Most of people there are rich famelies, i think and not poor students...