I don't see why you don't spend some quality time alone without dating? It's been one man after another and each time it ends, you say you want to spend more time alone taking care of yourself and your own life. The last guy wore you out. Then you meet someone else and all that goes out the window. Why are you afraid to be alone? And sorry if I'm being too forward. I just wonder why it is you cannot be alone, when you say you want to be and to spend time working on your own life.