I’ve been trying to lose weight and I’ve lost some weight since Thanksgiving. Today I was trying really hard to diet and I ended up giving myself a panic attack. So I upped my calories to maintenance and then I took my Valium and my 20 mil Geodon. I was just panicking because I want to lose weight but I was so hungry it was affecting my moods trying to balance the 2 thoughts I was having of “I’m so hungry.” And “I can’t eat because I need to lose weight.” Which is why I met in the middle with upping my calories a bit but not outrageously.

I made some good food choices today but some things weren’t good. I had a full calorie soda and a cup of iced coffee. If I just skipped those 2 and ate stuff instead it would have been better overall I think.