I'm sorry you don't like your baby dolly. I have a 24" teddy bear I bought a few weeks ago from Vermont Teddy Bears. I hold him in the morning while I drink my tea and during the evening when we (typically) watch one of the free movies that are on YouTube. Often I'll bring him back to bed with me after I've gotten up, during the night, to go pee. I hold him with his back against my chest and it's really comforting. I tend to have a lot of physical anxiety-like feelings in my body, especially when I'm awake during the night. And holding my teddy bear close is a comfort... more-so than I even realized it would be when I bought him.