Thanks. Iīve also experinced this shift between feeling close and not feeling close to people. I live on my own and for most of the time the only one I met with was a therapist or a counselor over the last seven years or so.
I think many people can tolerate those shifts better than perhaps you and I who easily feel left out. I guess you feel something similar to that. I donīt think a T you see regularly suddenly forgets about you but there will unfortunately always be a huge difference in how the T sees the relationship and how you and me as clients see it.
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Originally Posted by Lostislost
I can relate to your post, especially the last paragraph...'an illusion of being part of someone else's life'...I feel like this sums up my relationships with people, including my T.
I don't know how or why it's like this. Sometimes I feel really close to people, friends or work colleagues or my therapist. Then stuff happens and I can see that I'm not really a part of their life at all, and it was all quite one sided or just in my head.
I have felt close to people at work and with people I volunteered with, but as soon as I stopped working or volunteering there, people instantly forgot me. It would probably be the same with my T. I think he forgets about me in between sessions, or he says stuff like 'all my clients are in my thoughts...' whatever that means. I think it means I'm not special to anyone, but I wish I was.
Sorry you experience this feeling too, it is not nice at all.
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