I'm sorry about this I have seen some very life like baby dolls online which I did not want as I felt they would be.... well, maybe triggering or something? I don't really have any suggestions but I'm sorry about this causing more pain for you. I wonder if you could give her away to someone? Or are you worried your friend might find out? Could you put her in a cupboard somewhere, with a small teddy maybe (to keep her ''company'') I also know how you feel about ''injuring plastic'' ) (I have been there ) (I've thrown a few things away....)

Maybe a different baby dolly might be better for you as MickeyCheeky suggested? It's ok not to like everything someone gives us even something as personal (for want of a ''better'' word ) as a baby dolly I think I can understand how disappointing and sad this has been for you, I would have felt bad about it too

Hugs and respect to you!