That post was validating to me like it's rare for me to find something that validating. That's the case even though I've already made a lot of effort with moving on from the cPTSD pain and stuff. I don't even want to think of any of it anymore. But your post was still incredibly validating.

And you know why it was validating? I recently was made to feel like I was wrong for not having removed all my cPTSD leftovers yet. And I did not respond fast enough to defend myself emotionally about it. I did later though. Btw I was told this even though the person herself had PTSD, she claimed she didn't like PTSD "filters" of people with PTSD, to me it just sounded like she tried to be in denial and blaming others for it. It's just really ironic.

So yeah, it's true that you can't expect most people to understand, even some people who have (c)PTSD themselves.

So anyway... you say in your post that "Some how my thoughts are to blame, even though my body reacted before a thought arose." I totally agree, and that's where you validated me. To heal from cPTSD, we of course want to change our thoughts too as part of the process but the reason for the trauma is not our thoughts. The reason is simply life. It just simply happens sometimes. And when you have a reaction, it's not because you have the "wrong thinking" or "wrong filter" (omg), but because of how life is, and how you have to / are trying to deal with life, the life that included trauma for you I mean. It's very much tangible, not just imagined thoughts. Yes, it's in our body and in reality, not just in our mind. It's all real.


The good news is that we have resilience to deal with life and its traumas and so you hopefully will eventually heal more. I wish you all the good luck!!