I just spent 1.5 hours reading old posts. It seemed like I was having a lot of vague health anxiety this past winter. But I also was reading that my primary told me that kidney issues can cause your mental health meds not to work. My kidneys have still been messed up so I’m wondering if that’s why my meds seem to have crapped out on me. Then I was reading about all the transference I was having with that one therapist. But still feeling messed up and sad about her after I ended things. Geeze what a mess. I hope tomorrow goes decently so I can forget both of those therapists.

But the kidney thing really has me thinking. I also remembered that at home UTI kits exist. So I’ll get one of those tomorrow when I go to Walmart in the morning to do some shopping. I plan on going out to eat after therapy. My mom complained today that I don’t do anything all day and that I’m dealing with depression. But I had planned on doing things tomorrow.

I told my mom to hide all my meds early tonight. I took out the stuff I needed for tonight, just my normal stuff. And my morning Geodon for tomorrow. Then she took the basket and hid it in her room. I took my 2 zzquil melatonin’s but nothing else that I shouldn’t be taking.