i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that you don't seem ungrateful to me. i think it's normal to want to expand your social circle. You've said you've already tried to discuss this with your husband, can i ask you what did he reply to you? You don't have to answer. Perhaps try to make a Life for yourself. i understand it's not the same things as sharing it with your partner but i think it may still be useful for you. Give it a try if you aren't already of course. Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Karmma, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!