I want to thank you all who replied to my posting, I will try to do something for myself, but I don't feel I deserve it. Plus I suffer from server headaches daily, that keep me from doing too much. I listen to Native American music, as well as sounds of nature, whales and ocean surfs to help to relax. Maybe going to PT for a few weeks will help me get out of the house, as well as going to counseling.

Thank you all again, I wish you all great fortune and happiness.

Big Hugs to all