Yeah, well, I would agree with the first part of that. I don't believe he "needed" to push you away like that, but again, people are far from perfect, none of is us perfect, and even if I don't agree with his behaviour (I definitely find it very rude), it happens, unfortunately.

So IMO it's more like.... you got too close to him, yes and then he responded in a way that quite some people will respond with (not everyone will do that though), so it's a risk you have to calculate with.

I think if you can do some psychoeducation on your own - while waiting for therapy too - about what it really means that you got too close to him and how that caused other consequences (again, really unfortunately), you can get somewhere with it. Otherwise no, asking us on this forum regularly, that is very inefficient and takes a lot of time with relatively little result / very slow progress (if any progress). The only way you can speed it up if you YOURSELF work on it a lot, a LOT. But it can be worth it. I wish you good luck to it if you do ever try to start on this.