I subscribe to spoon theory. Basically you only have so many spoons a day and that various on whether or not your having a good day or not. So I'm stable on this medication great but I can't convince myself to do even less then basic ****.

I had a Drs appointment and I cancelled because showering and going was just too much in one day. If I shower the energy for anything else for that day is done. It seems like I was fuelled by anxiety and paranoia.

We had people over for a little yesterday today my family was lucky I heated up leftovers. How do I get basic energy back. I don't want to change my meds but I have to have the energy to do more than one thing a day. I need to participate in my world without fear.

I'm not tired it's just no real push towards anything. TMI today all I did was color. I spend more time scrolling through Facebook then interacting with my world. I know I shouldn't be staring at a screen all day but I feel like I could star at a blank wall and be just as content.