I feel like an old woman- when I say old woman, about 90 or 100

body pain- pretty much crippling, yesterday restricting my movements for around 50/60 minutes. I could not do anything in that time

memory- shot. I can't even remember the basics. this morning I was in a panic because I couldn't remember what letter came after C (I had to google the alphabet, and felt so embarrassed) though I was the only person in the room, so no one knew..
mental health- wrecked. utterly wrecked, to the point where I'm getting no peace at all (yesterday I was talking to my bottle of hand sanitiser) giving a lecture about not wondering across the table on it's own, but to stay with all the other bottles
lately it really feels like the beginning of the end. it really does