Thanks ladies, I agree with you all! I did however say something to my husband, I had to, my anger and frustration was spilling out when I was dealing with the kids. None of this is their fault, and they shouldn't have to feel the tension, so I chose to address the issue directly with him.

I told him that I understand that his new business is a priority for him, and next time I will be more specific (ie. "If you want to make business calls, can you be done by 1:00pm so you can help me with lunch?"). And sabby, you're right, I get impatient when he doesn't do certain things right away, but it's because I have to face the consequences of his procrastination, not because I want the control. It's things that need to be done right away that I will ask him to do, ie: wash bottles before my teething little man starts crying for milk, or feed the dogs (who have a tendency to jump up on me when they have to wait for food, or step all over the kids when they're hungry - big dogs), things of that nature. I have explained the urgency for each "chore" numerous times, but still my "priorities" always come second.

Sigh...same response as always..."You're right, I'm sorry I'm such an ***, you deserve better, etc. etc. etc....", and then he proceeded to bury himself in "new business stuff" until he left for work at 4:00pm!

That's the one thing that's never going to change - his needs, his priorities will always come first, and he's right, I deserve better which is why I will eventually leave. He said today he will change (and hopes I will still be around when he does), that he wants to be different, and wants this marriage to work, but once again, his actions spoke much louder than his words.

Thanks for everything everyone. My heart is heavy today, but at least I know you are all rooting for me!