I am so ****ing sick of having an empty stomach night after night, I swear

yesterday for dinner I had steak with salt and pepper on it. within half an hour of realising I didn't like the steak and feeling unsatisfied, I helped myself to candy (chocolate segments), which, as nice as they were, didn't fill me up

so I ended the day, again, not feeling like I had a decent meal

pain is bad today- not just the back stuff, but hungry also