i think everyone can make mistakes. It is good that you're trying to analyze what happened but i'd say try not to beat yourself up too much voer it. Sometimes things like this just happen. i don't necessarely think it's anyone's fault. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @leomama, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!