So Sorry for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! i think some individual counseling may prove Helpful and explaining to your kids what happened if possible may be useful as well. Perhaps it won't be easy but give it your best try nonetheless. Hoping the absolute best for you and your Family. Hugs. Stay Safe. Stay Strong. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Maggiesmimi, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!