I don’t LOSE empathy, just deactivated it. My Facebook account still exists, but deactivated and I can reactivate it at any time by logging on. Sometimes these days, I feel bad for others but whenever that happens, I quickly harden myself up to protect myself. That homeless person asking for a cup of soda? Well I feel bad for him but instead gave him a clear WATER cup. Idk why I feel safer hardening myself up, but I do.

Maybe I subconsciously figured any act of kindness on my part gets punished or humiliated.

Worst of all, no matter what I do, I’m not worth it for anyone to stick around. Otherwise at least the GM at McDonald’s would still talk to me during his visits to borrow stuff from the store I work at.

He still talks to my coworkers, right? I find it hard to be around people I’m jealous of, but the biggest reason I became rude to them is because they were rude first. From the first day that GM pushed me aside, my coworkers became rude when they saw me crying in the restroom for half an hour, still clocked on.

I just need advice on how to transfer when they let me come back to work on the 16th. How long should I behave myself and not make waves before they can try to transfer me?