After reading this thread of yours and the other one too, I am more and more convinced you've been emotionally gaslighted through various manipulations (like I was too). If you feel the need to endlessly find more justifications about your decision, even though your decision has been based in the facts very much and a very sensible one, then clearly you've been affected on an emotional level even if perhaps subconsciously. Like you mentioned in your other thread, it relates to false narratives too. Let's just call a spade a spade though....those false narratives were lies. I'm sorry. I again wish you luck with figuring out all the gaslight and moving from all of it. You've definitely made the right decision, TishaBuv and everyone else is very right about how she was looking out for her own well-being wayyyy more than yours let alone your kids' well-being.