Job search can be pretty tough i think. Please do not give up. There are still two whom are considering after all and perhaps that may be the right occasion. Even if that isn't the case do not get discouraged though. i think you can handle this. Do try your Best like you're hopefully already doing. If you're seeing a therapist consider talking to them about this if you aren't already of course. i Hope you will find a job soon and that things will improve really soon. Do you have a support system in place? That can be Helpful. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @indigo1015, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!